Seagull nightmare

 Hello!

I was about to write "July is here", but that would be a bit premature. Still June, which is absolutely fine by me. Summer goes by too fast anyway, so why not slow down a bit.

How do you feel about seagulls? Their sound can be kind of nice during a day by the sea. Early in the morning for the 45th day in a row, not so much. I can hear them now outside the window, crying and screaming, relentlessly. I know it's because of their offspring, they are being protective. But why here in the centre of a town far from the sea? Pack up your bird shit and leave! It feels like I hear them day and night. My sleep is severely disturbed. My mood as well.

Well, what can you do. Buy some kind of a gun and finish them off? Hahaha! 

That was a joke, okay? Tomorrow morning I'll wake up, not from the seagulls yelping, but someone banging on the door screaming bloody murder and don't touch the seagulls. They've got rights you know.

Sorry, I love animals, but I also love my sleep. It's essential for my well-being, but to be honest, it's also a survival thing. Please dear seagulls, let me live!

Where do we go from here?

I'm visiting my grandmother this afternoon. Going there with my parents. She lives in a seagull-free zone. Thank God. 

I'm sorry, but I don't think I can bring myself to think of something else. So I'm gonna let you go now. I wish you all a lovely day without seagulls!

Take care!

Maria

Trust issues

 Hello!

What's up? Doing fine out there?

It's raining here today. I heard the rain against the windows when waking up this morning. I didn't have to get up inmediately, so I stayed in bed. Fell back into sleep. Felt good.

It's a calm and quiet atmosphere. Listening to the radio. Been reading some stuff about the voice of intuition versus the voice of ego. Interesting and important.

I've been in a bad mood for a while. Trying to do my best, but it's hard when the frustrated, irritated and angry emotions are easily activated. It'll pass, like always, but here and now the best medicine is being by myself and sleep a lot. Well, it would probably be good with some company. I just don't want to expose anyone to my frustrations. To be honest, I also don't want to expose myself to anyone's lack of care or empathy for my state.

I need to take care of myself. No one else is doing it. My responsibility. My life.

I've created a very complicated life for myself. Isolated myself a lot during the years. Thinking I'm all alone, that no one understands or care. Being by myself with my thoughts. 

We need each other. 

The problem is trust. Who do I trust? Can I trust anyone? Do I dare to be vulnerable and open up?

Let's think about that.

Take care!

Maria