Trust issues

 Hello!

What's up? Doing fine out there?

It's raining here today. I heard the rain against the windows when waking up this morning. I didn't have to get up inmediately, so I stayed in bed. Fell back into sleep. Felt good.

It's a calm and quiet atmosphere. Listening to the radio. Been reading some stuff about the voice of intuition versus the voice of ego. Interesting and important.

I've been in a bad mood for a while. Trying to do my best, but it's hard when the frustrated, irritated and angry emotions are easily activated. It'll pass, like always, but here and now the best medicine is being by myself and sleep a lot. Well, it would probably be good with some company. I just don't want to expose anyone to my frustrations. To be honest, I also don't want to expose myself to anyone's lack of care or empathy for my state.

I need to take care of myself. No one else is doing it. My responsibility. My life.

I've created a very complicated life for myself. Isolated myself a lot during the years. Thinking I'm all alone, that no one understands or care. Being by myself with my thoughts. 

We need each other. 

The problem is trust. Who do I trust? Can I trust anyone? Do I dare to be vulnerable and open up?

Let's think about that.

Take care!

Maria