2018-05-30

My life - my experience

Hi there you guys!

It's warm in Sweden, really hot. Not too hot, but far too hot to be indoors. My apartment is like a sauna, no balcony, no fans. But who am I to complain...

Well, I will be indoors anyway and write some stuff I've been thinking about lately. Yes, my mind is quite active and have been even though I haven't been blogging for a few months now.

So, how are you doing? Are you having fun? Are you living your life the way you want it to? Are you growing? I'm asking you to take a moment to think about these things. They are important.

I myself are having fun, now and then. Not all the time. But a few laughs a day, at least, is good for you. People who have kids usually get many laughs from that source. Good stuff! I get my free laughs a day from The Big Bang Theory or Friends. Thank you television and thank you Netflix. (No, they haven't paid me to write this.) Another good idea is to call my parents, they are always positive and a joke or fun story are always around.

Am I living the life I want to? No, I'm not. Not fully and truly. But I'm getting there. I'm exploring and learning and taking it one step at a time. It's exciting. Life should be exciting and interesting.

Something extraordinary and so great happened in April. I was in Stockholm to attend a concert I've been waiting for since 2010 or so. I finally stood (or jumped mostly) there and experienced my life to the fullest - watching Jared Leto and Thirty Seconds to Mars on stage. Their beautiful music, the energy and the love they shared. Amazing! I was a big smile for hours, maybe even days after, loving every second of it. Thank you!

If there is something you really want, so hard, you have to work for it and get it! You owe it to yourself. It doesn't matter if it takes a long time or whatever. It doesn't matter whatever it is. When the day comes, it's worth every step, all the blood and sweat and tears. Your life - your experience. You do it, your way. Don't listen too much to what other people say. Don't care about opinions that get thrown in your face.

Your life - your experience. Are you growing? Are you listening to yourself? Your inner self?

You know I highly recommend meditation or spending a lot of time in nature, or listening to music. You don't have to avoid other people, but it helps not to be overly social all the time. You will need some peace and quiet for you! How will you be able to hear your inner voice otherwise? Don't be scared of some silence, as they sing it actually is golden.

Take care you all!


2018-02-22

Olympic Emotions

Feelings. What would we be without them?
Not human.

The Olympic Games bring out the very most of the experience of being human. It's quite enough to sit in front of the TV and watch the games. Exciting, breathtaking, even impossible to look sometimes. Hiding behind a cushion, praying they will make it.

Sweden is very good at the winter Olympics. For such a small nation, we are great actually. This makes me happy and proud and I really applaud all the athletes!

It's weird how fast tears will appear in my eyes when I see a Swedish participant step up on the winners' stand to recieve the goldmedal (or silver, or bronze, it doesn't matter). An amazing feeling in the chest and a big smile on my face. So much joy but also so much sadness when someone fails to achieve what we've hoped for.

Just like in other parts of life.

The human experience it built from all of these feelings, emotions.

I mean, if we don't care for sports, we don't watch the Olympics and also don't share the joy of a goldmedal - but we don't have to deal with the pain of the losses either.

But most humans don't have the choice to avoid failure and losses in real life. We have to be here, for the whole race, the ups and downs. And when the down period have lasted for several years and all you really want and long for is a chance to climb up from the dark valley and see the view again. Really see it, to actually believe it's there, and feel the life force, not just some wasted hope again and again. To feel strong and confident and just not care at all about what people say.

To know with your heart and soul that this is my life and I decide what I want to do and where I want to go. And just go and do it.

To be your own Olympic athlete in your own race and live it the fullest.

I've been on my knees so many times and I've got up again and again. I'm not alone, many people fight really hard. I'm not talking about sports anymore, I hope you get that.

I'm sick of the dark side, the pain, the fighting - I long for the sunshine and the warm feelings of love and a million hugs. I know life is made of both dark and light. We need both, we need balance.

Tears of joy, tears of sadness.

Winners, losers.

We learn, we grow and one day we will be exactly where we're supposed to.

Breathing fresh air, with a great view. With the right person.