"Whatever you do, don't get stuck on the one thing that ruins your day.
Smile and be grateful. Life is too short to waste on negativity".
Today is day 1, week 3. Without that one job I was promised. A challenge, yes - but I really don't want to get all upset and write angry e-mails and scream and shout on the phone. Enough!
I couldn't care less, to be honest. What I mean is that I'm not surprised. I have done everything I was supposed to do. In terms of going to meetings and staying in touch and so on. Waiting like a good soldier.
(Instead of working: Time for listening to music, planning the future (MY future, MY dreams) and just breathing. That's fine.)
Sooner or later I will get started. Hopefully I will be able to fix it by myself, to get a proper job with proper pay and then I will save some money and get my ass to Los Angeles where it's supposed to be.
Or at least, I will have a REAL job and don't have to deal with the authorities. So sick and tired of them. (An incredible amount of good intentions and failed promises...)
I am very thankful for all the good help I've got during this summer! I really am. Truly grateful for the right persons who I've done some planning with. Now, since the planning was proven to be a waste of time: please let me go and let me find the right job for me! Don't hold me hostage inside the shitty box when there's absolutely nothing I can do about it, not with all your rules and FUCKERY!!!
I wish I could take just any job and then just work my ass off and then be rich and do whatever I want to! But I'm BIPOLAR, can't handle stress and need a half-time job, or even less hours than that.
Could YOU help me? Would you? Do you want to?
Please and thank you in advance!
Maybe I'm only brainwashed. With the right people around me, a nice environment, with the proper tasks, something I can handle and am good at and enjoy doing, I would probably be fucking great with full-time even!
Give me a chance!
NOT The End...